All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true.... I depend on you
I climbed across the mountaintops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do.....I depend on you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through
Like you do..... I depend on you
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true.... I depend on you
Well maybe the second paragraph doesn't resonate so much in the T relationship, but the others certainly do. If I was more technologically competent, I could insert a youtube link to the song, but alas, I am not.
Seems like lots of bloggers are going through attachment/dependency phases/issues with their therapists this month. I wonder why - is this the time of year when most people are with their families, it's holiday time right? And maybe we either don't have families, or aren't close with our families, or are members of dysfunctional families, so we turn to our t's to fill in the spaces where family would normally be?
ReplyDeleteOr maybe it's just coincidence.
How apt this is for me as well even the second paragraph except for 'you made me feel like a million bucks'. It seems to me that the TR is tough to figure out. It seems wrapped up in so many other issues in my life.
ReplyDeleteIt's great that you are walking.
Harriet - maybe it's coincindence or maybe it's the timing in therapy. Many of us are at that same 2-3 year span. Although with me, some probably is related to abandonment over the holiday.
ReplyDeleteLost - Yes the second verse doesn't really apply. Perhaps we'll feel that way at the end :)
Attachment and dependency are hard to work thru. I've been on both sides as a patient - and as a therapist.
ReplyDeleteBTW, I love that song too.
Dr. Deb -
ReplyDeleteThanks for commenting - perhaps a post from you on attachment and dependency? :) I think I find this relationship hard because I am so independent and can "take care of myself". This week's session was particularly difficult - not sure T is understanding what I am saying or need right now - perhaps I don't understand it myself.
Take care,
OLJ